yeah this weekend was weird and fun as hell XO WOOH!!!!!! i went to my annual Lawler family reunion up in Eldora, Iowa at my grandmas farm and for those who dont know where that is, its in the middle of: FRE~AKI~NG. N~O. WHE~RE!!!!! ><'''
but the farm is a cool place to chill with my cousins who obviously got wasted and drunk off their asses. as always, but lets remember now that i was with my parents and sister as well so the fun didnt last too long. grrrrr..... only three hours in a confined area with my nagging unsupportive mother, my "i just wanna get drunk with my brothers" dad, and my lame annoying bitchy sister!!! not bad at all, right? wrong!!! but being able to be myself with my relatives that actually encourage my creative-ness-ness-ness was totally worth the cramped headache bringing three hour car ride up there. and that is saying a lot!!! ^^ it was a bit lonely without my friends back home, but i got to sing one of the songs i had written for my relatives. its awesome and im gonna give you the lyrics cause you dont have a choice because you are my watchers! MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! >8D

i dont know how to put up an audio version (not saying that my voice is the best for the internet. XP) and i dont have a title for it yet so give me some suggestions if you want to im totally open for them, so here goes. ahem.
i wonder what it would be like to walk in your shoes, i wonder if i would have some fun doing the things you do. possibly could i stay for just a little while, although i know i dont fit your outer style. ~ two sets of do do do do do do do do's here~ i wonder what you think of me, i wonder how you do each day. i wonder if i could change your mind from what you do to what you say. i wonder if youll ever get bored with my smiling face. cause i need to know what i can do and what i can change.

~refrain~ and one of these days, ill have the answer that id been searching for so long ago. and ill wait here, for you always. one of these days, one of these days. some day. ~two sets of do do do do do do do do's here~ i wonder how you could be so cruel then turn to be so kind. i wonder what is running through your crazy tuned out mind. i wonder if im the one you need to shower you with light, cause if thats true im not going down without a fight. ~refrain~ then one of these days, youll have the answer that had been hiding since so long ago. and youll be here, by my side always. one of these days. one of these days. one of these days. some...... day. ~the end! hope you enjoyed that!